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1 Forgiving our Failure– Part 1

Psalms 32:1-11

“Blessed is the one whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. 2 Blessed is the one    whose sin the Lord does not count against them and in whose spirit is no deceit. 3 When I kept silent,     my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. 4 For day and night your hand was heavy on me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. 5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.” And you forgave the guilt of my sin. 6 Therefore let all the faithful pray to you while you may be found; surely the rising of the mighty waters will not reach them. 7 You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. 8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. 9 Do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you. 10 Many are the woes of the wicked,     but the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him. 11 Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous; sing, all you who are upright in heart!”

In the film “The Mission,” Robert DeNiro plays a mercenary who has taken asylum in a local church after killing his brother in a fit of jealous rage. Eventually he heads to a mission post located above the waterfalls in the jungles of South American. But because of his past failure and his regret he chooses to tie himself to a several-hundred pound net of items and drag them around. Just like many of us we end up dragging around our sacks of sin trying to do penance for our past messes and mistakes. And like Robert DeNiro we struggle and slip under the weight of our sin only to end up being chocked by the rope that binds us to our burdens. Many of us are trying to do life tethered to out transgressions. Like Robert DeNiro we are still holding onto our sin and the shame that comes with it. We end up loaded down under a burden of guilt and shame over past failures. Are you swimming in a sea of shame, trying to survive but drowning under the weight of your guilt? What do we do when we realize that we have messed up? How do you find your footing when you keep falling into failure? Where do you turn when you have failed and hurt those closest to you? Do you grab some rope and hitch it up to your sack of sin and start dragging? Or, is there something better? Over the next few blogs we will be answering that question as we look at Psalm 32, but first let me remind you of the results of guilt.

  1. Guilt destroys

It corrodes our confidence making us feel insecure because we are constantly concerned that others are going to discover our past dirt, what we really like, or what we’ve really done. There is a story told about Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, the author of the Sherlock Holmes novels, who played a prank on five of the most prominent men in England. He sent an anonymous note to each one that simply said this, “All is found out, flee at once.” Within 24 hours all five men had left the country. Because of guilt many of us are living in fear instead of in freedom. We are wasting our time trying to cover up our sin instead of confessing it. Not only does guild destroy us from within but:

  1. Guilt damages our relationships.

When we live under the load of guilt with unconfessed sin we often end up responding to people in poor and painful ways. When we carry guilt around in our gut we often react with anger or impatience, sometimes we end up isolating ourselves, pulling back from those we love. Because we live in the garbage of our guilt we end up ruining our relationships only adding to our list of regrets. Instead of engaging in relationship we end up running from it. Not only does guilt destroy and damage but:

  1. Guilt damns

Because guilt keeps us stuck in the prison of our past, where we end up continuously replaying our sins over and over in our mind? We end up reliving our past instead and ruining our present. The truth is guilt cannot change the past just as worry cannot change the future. The only thing guilt can do is mire us down and make us miserable. You see guilt should cause us to turn to God, but while many of us wrestle with false guilt, too few of us take our real guilt seriously. Instead of confessing our sins, we try to cover them up or refuse to even recognize them as sin. Today in our attempt to ignore and reject sin we have renamed it. Today life is being defined by what we want to believe instead of being based on the bible and anyone that disagrees is not only politically incorrect but they are labeled a bigot. But believing and basing your life on the bible doesn’t make you a bigot. Instead the bible provides a foundation that can filter our feelings and help us to test what is true. The bible is not just our base its our bedrock. It calls us back to the truth that we are sinners who have missed the mark of God’s perfection. Because of sin our own death warrants have been written into our birth certificates. The truth is that we struggle with guilt because we are guilty. Ecclesiastes 7:20 makes this truth clear: “There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.” The Author of Psalm 32 is David, who although he was a great king and walked with God for much of his life also struggled with sin. David  committing adultery and murder but he speaks to us as one familiar not only with failure but also forgiveness. He reminds us that regardless of how rotten we are we can be fully restored and completely forgiven. There are seven psalms of forgiveness, Psalm 6, 32, 38, 51, 102, 130, and 143 and Psalm 32 is sometimes referred to as one of “Paul’s Psalms” because it is quoted extensively in Romans 4:6-8 to help establish that we are declared righteous not because of what we’ve done, but because of what Christ did on the Cross. You don’t have to let your life be guided by guilt you can confess your sin and be cleansed. Do you want to live in the failure or in the forgiveness? Why not come and confess your sins, admit your guilt to God and let Him forgive you.

 


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32 From fear to following – Part 3

John 20:19-22

“19 That Sunday evening the disciples were meeting behind locked doors because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders. Suddenly, Jesus was standing there among them! “Peace be with you,” he said. 20 As he spoke, he showed them the wounds in his hands and his side. They were filled with joy when they saw the Lord! 21 Again he said, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I am sending you.” 22 Then he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.”

Last time we saw that we need to expect His presence and embrace His peace but many of us are tempted to respond by saying, it’s just not that easy. It’s the same struggle that the disciples had, how do I trust in the trying times? But the reason you have not embraced His peace is because third you haven’t:

  • Examined His Proof

Jesus offers evidence to His doubting disciples. If you want to forsake your fears then you need to pay attention to the proof. Christianity is not just a system of rules and regulations; it’s a relationship with the living Lord. Mary missed Jesus because she mistook God for a gardener; here the disciples miss Him because they mistake God for a ghost! Fear creates a false perception, it pervert your perspective causing you to miss the Messiah. Many of us are living in the panic instead of the promises because we haven’t taken time to examine the proof. We are living in the Fear instead of the finished work. Phobia comes from the Greek word for fear, but it refers to a panic that is completely out of proportion to the perceived threat behind it. They were afraid of people because they had forgotten about God’s power. I think today we need to come back to the cross, to ponder the proof so that we can live in the power. Are you living in the reality of the resurrection or the ruin of religion? If you believe the proof then it should change your practice. Instead of being consumed with panic we should be concerned with proclaiming. Because examining the proof should lead to:

  • Exclaiming His Plan

Jesus not only provides us with His presence, His peace and with proof, but fourth He calls us to pursue His plan. Christ doesn’t just comfort us, He commissions us. Recognizing that His followers are still fearful, Jesus once again declares in verse 21: “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.” His peace is given so that we will be about His purposes. We are saved in order to be sent, we were not saved to sit but to share about the Savior. It’s here that Jesus dispatches His disciples, His plan is not for you to live in a locked room fretting over the future but to engage His plan in the present. We have a mission and a message that cannot be kept in a locked room. It’s time to stop cowering and start caring, people are going to hell and we are hiding. Christianity doesn’t put out a sign and say ‘come’ Christianity puts on its shoes and goes. The first use of the word “peace” in verse 19 was given in order to quiet their hearts, the second “peace” was given to prepare them to pursue God’s plan. Fear distracted the disciples from the mission, and it can cause us to hold up and hide the hope of God. Worry is a tool of the devil to derail you from God’s plan and get you to waste your life instead of using it to witness. Christ didn’t conquer the cross so the church could cower behind closed doors but so that the church could courageous confront a lost culture with the hope and healing of the Lord. Like the disciples who were living behind locked doors many of us are living with locked lips. Instead of being a witness to the finished work of the cross we are a witness to worry. When the church stops living in the hope it starts hiding. If we are going to exclaim His plan then we need to:

  • Engage His Power

Jesus not only calls and commissions, but He provides the power of Holy Spirit as a companion. When it comes to the great commission this passage reminds us of the:

Method – People, God could have use any method He wanted to declare His message to a messed up world and He chose you and me. Now we often say that the message never changes but the method does yet in reality neither the message nor the method changes, because the method is people not programs. Today we are trying to rely on programs because we have forgotten the power of personal connection that comes through people.

Message – That salvation only comes through Jesus as Ephesians 1:7 says: “In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.”

Motive for ministry – LOVE, Jesus told His disciples “as the Father sent me so I send you” We may be motivated by the desire for reward, recognition, financial gain, promotion or even pride. On the other hand, our motivation may be fear of punishment, failure, rejection or getting caught. Those are the lowest forms of motivation, but Jesus set a higher standard, His motivation was love. We may have various motives for serving him, but the only one that will prevail against all discouragement and setbacks is love.

Means – His power, God never sends us to do a work for which he does not equip and enable us. Living in the reality of the resurrection means rely on His resources. You see Jesus didn’t just bless His disciples He breathed on them. This is the only time that the word “breathe.” Is used in the New Testament but it appears at least four times in the Old Testament, where the word “breath” also means “spirit.”

Genesis 2:7: “The LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.”

Job 33:4: “The Spirit of God has made me; the breath of the Almighty gives me life.”

Psalm 33:6: “By the word of the LORD were the heavens made, their starry host by the breath of his mouth.”

Ezekiel 37:5: “This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.”

Just as God’s breath made the first creation, so likewise the breath of Jesus makes the new creation. We don’t have to be filled with fear because we are filled with His Holy Spirit. The resurrection gives us hope, it’s the harbor that anchors our hearts in the hard times of life. As believers we don’t have to live lives of fear we can live lives of faith. While the world relies on its locks we rest on the Lord. What about you are you going to be a fearful follower or a faithful one?